Tuesday, 13 September 2011

• "Things will change."

  I'm on to my fourth relationship and everything feels quite different. Although it really has to be -- I mean, what with the change of another person you share your life with, there must be something entirely new about every relationship that I go into.

  But this one's really different. There's a lingering thought of sureness that goes along with it. And I'm pretty sure it's not just any feeling that, like seasons, would have the tendency to change. I hope I'm not blinding myself again with a lot of expectations, only to be disappointed in the end.

  We're on our third month now, and in retrospect, this is the part where I totally go overboard and bonkers and be mindless and stupid. The longest relationship I have been in only lasted five months (not to mention we broke up on the evening of our fifth monthsary). I'm not exactly sure how the relationship works in the long run -- will it always be like this, how I am doing it right now?

  I don't know.

  I over-think a lot of things at the moment and go paranoid over the most mundane of details. Ignorance is bliss, I could attest to that.

  But yes, what point am I exactly arriving at with this post?

  I just want a moment of clarity to be let out, and, more importantly, for it to stay here just so I could get back to it if I feel like it.

  Dear self, don't give up on this relationship. It's different -- in a very, very good way. You are in-love. Finally, you have found love that is meant to stay. So, stay. Please.

  I hope this will always help me get through with this well. Now that I know that "things will change".

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